Straight or Gay?

I went to pray at Kim Yan Temple yesterday after my filming. It was my grandparents' 1st death anniversary. But halfway through the prayers, I was rudely disturbed by an inconsiderate friend and I totally dislike what he have done yesterday. I feel that it was very disrespectful to my family and to my grandparents! You can love me, care for me, but dun keep forcing me to love you or accept you! I m just 20 years old, I need my own time and my own freedom.





Recently so many people tell me they love me and want to be with me, but I dun want in future 紧握你的双手 拥抱都觉得很累好累, just like what I sang in this song. Haiz..... Do you understand? I just want a simple relationship, be it a straight or gay relationship. A simple love, a simple hug, a simple couple..... I m waiting for the day to come. I m walking alone, hoping you will just come to me one day.

Look at my cousin's daughter, 乐儿, very cute right? Lol! Her expression so fierce in this photo. So cute! After that we went to eat dinner. See my two cousins as usual in their own world. The one in blue is Ryan and the other is Max.

We had a big gathering after the prayer session at one of the Tiong Bahru coffee shop! The food is nice and tasty, and I always eat down here whenever I visit my grandparents in the past. (",)

Ah Gong Ah Ma, Elson miss you a lot. Hope that both of you will be happy in the other world. Elson walk alone now. I have nobody to talk to at time. Nobody seem to understand me.

Friendship Forever!

"True friendship is like sound health; the value of it is seldom known until it be lost."
Charles Caleb Colton

"Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born."
Anais Nin

"A friend is one who walks in when others walk out"
Walter Winchell

"A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart, and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words."
Donna Roberts

"Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow.Don't walk behind me, I may not lead. Walk beside me and be my friend."
Albert Camus
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Past few days was busy with my casting, audition, recording and filming. Personally felt that I had left out my friends and my supporters. I m so sorry if I did not reply your smses or I did not pick up your call.

I will try my best to give every of my friends and supporters a call to chat over the phone at least once every two weeks if possible. Otherwise we can chat in MSN or leave me a message in my blog chatbox, then I will try to reply you asap! If you want to email me, you may email to elsonsoh1988@hotmail.com.

Yesterday I know a few new friends, namely Mandy from FHM champion for Girl Next Door contest. Then also make friends with the production team and members from Fighting G as well. Thank you all of you for supporting me! (",)

Oh ya! A few people expressed their feeling to me, I feel that I m not good enough for them yet . Maybe I m too shy at time, as I dun talk much too! I m learning now! Working hard on so many things at the same time. Lol! Whether I m in love with a gal or guy, I think feeling is the most important thing that I should look out for now.

Elson need love and relationship, maybe more than that..... Who is willing to be with me? Haiz..... Is it true that Elson is ugly and not suitable to start a relationship now? If any gal or guy who want to be with me, do email me with a photo and a short profile to introduce yourself today (Saturday)!

Always remember to sms Elson or leave me any comment in Youtube and my Chatbox if you are feeling down and unhappy.

Filming is FUN

Boss saw this two cute doggies at the speaker's corner near Clarke Quay MRT today! He took a photo and email me just now. Cute right? Lol! I love them too!




Today Mandy come down to support me, but she waited at the cafe near our filming area from 1.30pm till 5.30pm, together with Bryan and Nicholas. I m very touched that she actually come down to support me, not forgetting Bryan and Nicholas as well. Thank you!

Anyway the filming today is VERY FUN and I get to know so many nice people and instructors! I also took a lot of picture with them, but the producer say that we cant upload any of the photo until they give us the green light to do it! Which mean you guys have to wait until you see our video promotion advertisement appear in Channel U, then we can upload the picture that we took today! (",) So sorry that I also cant announce the name of the other two finalists.

Just want to thank the whole production team and the sponsor for giving me such a great opportunity to appear in their contest! Thank you very much!



I bring a lot of tee-shirts and round neck shirts for the filming. After the filming ended at 5.30pm, I went to look for Mandy, Nicholas and Bryan at Settlers Cafe at North Canal Road. I had a short drink and chat with them before moving out to meet my parents and relatives, as we need to go for praying at temple near River Valley Road.

Today is my grandparents' 1st death anniversary and my mood is actually very down. Just that I did not show it when I was filming. In fact, I m very close to both of them since young. Both of them passed away within 3 days last year May. I still remember that when my grandpa passed away first, I was doing one singing performance at Nyonya Bistro for Sichuan Funds Raising. I attend the show and rush down to the wake immediately after the show ended.

I miss them, today when I open my wallet and look at the photo I took with them, my heart is bleeding and crying. Nobody actually notice it, only Boss knew that I m very upset, that why he keep helping me to check out the finishing timing for the filming. Thanks Boss! (",)

Heard from Bryan that they played a few board games at Settlers Cafe, think I should go try out in future when I have the time. Lol!